A few days ago I found the first emails that my husband ever wrote to me. They were sweet, so very, very sweet.
At the time I was struggling. I’d just broken up with my second boyfriend, a boy who loved me, but who was not in love with me. I was still hurt from the previous relationship which had ended after five long years of emotional abuse and chronic cheating.
Into all that anger and confusion and just plain hurt, sweet, amazing M walked in. He was kind and compassionate. He listened to me and he opened his heart wide up from day one.
That level of vulnerability was terrifying at first. I felt damaged and my first gut instinct was to turn my hurt around and project it instead of internalizing it. And then I looked into his sweet blue eyes that were so trusting and open and instead I felt my own heart start to heal.
If you ask M he’ll tell you that I’ve taught him a lot over the years. Truth is, he’s taught me more.
He’s taught me to be vulnerable. To let people in.
He’s taught me to trust again and to give of myself with no reservation.
He’s taught me kindness and compassion.
All in all, he’s made me become a better person.
This weekend M got some challenging medical news. It’s nothing we’re not going to face bravely, but it is something infuriating. Just when we thought we were at the end of one painful road, we discover that we’ve just been diverted onto a completely unexpected side path, and that first road still needs to be crossed.
We’re reeling. And hurting. I’m mad, sad, confused, and mad all over again.
I’m pretty sure M is feeling much of the same.
It’s been a really long weekend. There are a million emotions running through me and yet I just feel overwhelmingly grateful.
I’m married to the most amazing man in the world. He’s proven it time after time over the years, but this weekend he proved it all over again.
Once a long time ago I equated vulnerability with weakness. Then I met the man who showed me that vulnerability is actually the greatest strength.
And this guy? He’s beyond strong.
This is a beautiful post. I can feel the love you have for your husband. I’m sorry you and your family are facing a health challenge.
You know that quote from that movie saying “no one puts baby in the corner” well with your help….no one/thing is going to have your man be cornered. You will both get through whatever this is…..and it will make you stronger. <3 you
P.s. In the final scene you are going to both have this killer dance number and everyone is going to dance with you at the end.
I’m sorry to hear the news. I hope you get more information and a plan soon, and he’s on the road to kicking this to the curb.
I am so sorry to hear about your husband.
I love what you wrote, it brought tears to my eyes. You two are so in love, I can feel it through your words. I’m here for you, whatever you need, sweetheart.
Hi Jessica. Unexpected health issues are no stranger to us. At the beginning of last year, I was diagnosed with a tumor the size of an orange in my lower back. Nothing more than shin splints up til that point. Medical dilemmas rock the family like nothing else. Hang in there. I’m really sorry that you guys have to go through whatever this is. Bless you guys as you push through it.
he sounds amazing. Wishing you both the very best.
thoughts… hugs… love… wish we could do a real girls day so you could have some “me time.” It’s still important, you know. Don’t forget that.
So sorry to hear that things aren’t progressing well for M.
Please let us know how we can help.
What a beautiful post. I will keep you all in my prayers hun. Stay positive and never let go of that love!
I hope that things get resolved in a positive way. What a wonderful post! He sounds amazing!
A beautiful post, even if it does relay sad news. I wish your family the health, healing and good medical insurance. {hugs}
I’m so sorry to hear the news. I’m holding your family in my thoughts and prayers.
so sorry to hear! we will pray for you guys!
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