Starting a New Chapter

standard October 26, 2009 10 responses

For a little over a year I’ve worked from home. I got up when the girls dictated, but we left the house when we were good and ready to start our days. Sometimes it was at 9, sometimes closer to 10. Trust me, it was rarely, if ever, before 8:30.

I have loved the low key, mellow side to working for myself. I have loved being able to go for a run on the mornings I feel antsy, calling a friend for a last minute lunch or coffee date, being able to dash out to run errands or do a little shopping. I’ve become a regular at the Starbucks near the girls’ daycare because it’s where I do some of my best work. And I have relished being in charge of my schedule and my days. I knew what needed to be done and when it needed to be done by. I managed my to do list in function of my family and my life.

But best of all, I have loved being able to answer “I’m a freelance writer” when people asked me what I did for a living. 14 months into it and I still get a thrill when I present myself as a writer.

Despite all that, tomorrow morning I’m going to roll out of bed before 7, dress the girls well before they are used to being dressed, and I’m going to drop them off at daycare over an hour earlier than usual. Then I’m going to point my car in the opposite direction from my favorite Starbucks, my running route, or my home, and I’m going to take myself to my new job.

In an office.

I’ll be there five days a week, part time. I’ll have to wear ‘real’ clothes – read ‘not yoga pants.’ I’ll be part of a team, a really, really great team. And I’ll be mostly working on things that have nothing to do with writing.

It would be lying to say that I don’t have very mixed feelings about starting this new chapter of my life. On the one hand I’m very excited to be doing something new and to once again have co-workers. My last team has left me scarred in ways that I’m still discovering and I’m thrilled to get a chance to work with a functional and supportive group of people. On the other hand, I’m loath to let go of my “I’m a freelance writer in charge of my own schedule” freedom.

All week I have been having severe anxiety about this new development, but I’ve been working hard to talk myself down. I’m still going to be the person I’ve been this past year. I’m still going to be a writer. I’m still going to be me.

I’ll just be better dressed and a little less caffeinated.

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10 responses

  • Good luck Jessica. Just think — all those adults to talk to! Just try not to walk in with stickers all over your work clothes…

  • Well, good luck with the new job! I hope it works out well for you. Enjoy your first day.

  • Hey congratulations! so, aside from being part of a great team where will you be and what will you be doing? Was anticipating a multiple choice or something. You going to be any closer to my hood? We can meet for lunch and I’ll live vicariously through your working world lense…

  • wow – I’ve definitely been too out of touch! What’s the gig?

    Congrats. I bet you’ll enjoy the way your brain expands outside your regular walls. Mine hasn’t yet …

  • I, too, am wondering what you’ll be doing–besides waking your girls early and driving past your favorite Starbuck’s. Do tell?

  • Going back to work after so many years home with the kids was one of the hardest things I ever did. I didn’t give up a writing career, but I did give up a college education. I was a year away from becoming a teacher, but finances dictated, and I went back to work.

    Now I can honestly say it’s been the best thing for our family. The easing of the financial stress has been a great boon.

    Good luck to you! I hope you find some fulfillment in the new venture.

  • I didn’t know you were going back! Good luck and enjoy!

  • jude

    salut Jess, j’espère que tout s’est bien passé pour ce premier jour et que tes petites ne te rendront pas la vie trop difficile, du genre : “comment? Maman n’est plus disponible à plein temps? VENGEANCE!!!”
    Bises
    Cousine Jude

  • Hey – that is awesome! Do tell on how you scored a sweet part time job in an office as that is my dream right now.

    Maybe having your time more structured could help you with the writing? I dunno, just looking for that silver lining 🙂

  • Good luck! Can’t wait to hear all the details. It is fun to change it up – a new chapter 🙂

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