So on Monday I took that big leap and I shouted to the world that I. Was. READY! Ready to take charge of my new career. Ready to assume the risks, the consequences, and the joys. Ready. Ready. Ready.
I sent out emails to over 200 people and I sat back, waiting to see the job offers roll in.
Are you a Freelance Writer? If so, I just know you’re snickering right now. Stop that. S’not nice.
I got some lovely supportive emails back from friends and family. I even got a few emails from people asking if they could forward my resume. But, you guessed it, no leads. Let me be clear here, I’m not surprised, just disappointed. In my dreams I fighting clients off right and left, but that’s just not how it works. Right?
Or maybe it’s got nothing to do with the market and everything to do with me. Maybe my website isn’t alluring or enticing enough. Maybe I’m just not good enough to hire. I know that’s silly. I know it. But remember Egmos, my Evil Green Monster of Self-doubt? He’s lurking there, in the corner of my brain, spewing his poison, making me wonder if the problem really is me.
I need to take a deep breath and force Egmos back into his lair. I need to keep working on the non paying gigs that give me so much pleasure. But mostly I need to relax and enjoy this quiet time, because those job offers are going to start rolling in soon, really, really soon.