The nerve of it all! Even though I have no desire to tackle it, the work hasn’t gone away. In fact, the stress level is going up day by day. This weekend we have three big events and many things need to be done before then. Today I managed to throw myself into it and get a lot done. I admit that the picture of Hawaii on my desktop really helped to motivate me.
This evening we had dinner with the friends who lost their toddler earlier this spring. It was nice to just have a meal with them. So many of the times we have shared with them in the last few months have been about baby Micah. This was just about being with friends, about relaxing around a meal, about going on with life. We were not close to these friends before all of this. We were casual acquaintances trying to become better friends. Today we took a step towards that. It was lovely.
Earlier this week I heard that my other friend who lost a baby this year is pregnant. I am excited for her and also sad for her. I know that she must be terrified to have this child. I wish there was something I could do to help her through the next few months.
Life goes on. It doesn’t wait for your permission. It doesn’t stop to ask if you are ready or not, but spending time with others and watching those around you gives you the strength to keep going, to keep living.